Loneliness....(reflection of MY ONE's post)

Read MY ONE's latest post on the above, can't help but to craft a response... ...

Reading his brought tears, especially at this time when I am all alone out here with only no.4 and of course the non-stop puking, workload and pining for my family. I never knew I needed them so much until I had to survive here alone. Those nights when I had to "put up" with my little ones' incessant noise whilst rushing out my next assignment were badly missed. Think they were the white noise that I badly need to keep focused. Now when I have all the silence to myself, I am not as productive or efficient.

Needless to say, the absence of MY ONE is indeed crippling. I am no longer as cheery, as focused, as disciplined... ... and of course I no longer SHOP. Yap my favourite activity is gone. I have never gone through this phase in life when I don't feel like trying anymore, I don't want to hang on anymore. I just feel so much like packing up and going back to my comfort zone, carrying No. 4 to full term and putting whatever career plans I have on hold. Not that I doubt my survival chances but I am just so tired of having to be strong, I just wanna go back to MY ONE coz' I am just not me without him.