Didn't Realise It Was That Long Ago ... ...

Didn't realise it was that long ago that I left a post on my blog, guess it was the trying memories last year that I was trying to leave behind which brought about the absence.

Happy to share that this year has really been blissful so far. Changed team with new bosses and colleagues, Baby Nat on the way, kids behaving well in school... ...

Just that I am struggling to come to terms to my pre-term immobility. Pre-mature loosening of the pelvic joint is causing so much pain that I am pretty much home and bed bound these days. I can clearly count the number of cracks in my bedroom ceiling! That Claire has to rush back from school to buy me lunch these days says it all, doesn't it? And that Nigel will hold my hand whenever I have difficulty moving around at home melts me too. My sweet Chloe will massage my tummy with stretch mark cream every night to soothe the itch and tightness (honestly stretch mark cream is a placebo). It's also her "strategy" of getting prime time with Nat as early as possible "so that Baby Nat will listen to me when he arrives". As for Noah, he will not leave school each morning and sleep every night without kissing Nat (my belly) to wake him up and wish him good night.

Waiting for Claire to wake up from her afternoon nap before "bringing" me to office, need her to help me carry my laptop and stuff, of course to run from the printer and my cubicle... ...Having kids early does pay off, just that I feel bad that they have to take care of mummy when it should have been the other way.

Everyone at home is super excited about the arrival of Nat, but I am really scared. Guess courage is inversely correlated with age. Likely a high risk birth given all the underlying conditions, heart palpitations, SPD, #5 and all, hence opted for KK this round, just in case. Just praying that God will protect and provide as always.