Apprehension... ...
My composure gave way last Fri at work when his watapp read,
“Confirmed. I’d be going for the course”.
Yes, I’m happy and excited for him
for this is an opportunity not to be missed. We have discussed it many moons
back when I gave my blessings. As moons came and went, with keen competition
and bilateral relationship going south for a while, we had thought it was a no
go. But well 人算不如天算。
A week has passed since news broke but I’m still feeling
just as unsettled. We have never been apart for more than half a year and now
he’d be away for close to one and a half.
The logical part of me reads… …
- He has sacrificed time and again for me to pursue my dream and fantasy, now it’s only right I support him.
- It’s only one and a half years, come on.
- It’s an advancement not to be missed.
- Give the kids a chance to nurture their independence and me too.
- I have seen through more trying days when the kids were younger, surely the survivor in me will continue to triumph this time round.
Logic aside, the emotional part of me knows it’d not be
easy. I’ve grown to be so reliant on him, my best buddy, my sports trainer, my
listening ear, my career coach, my world news update, my car mechanic, my
doctor, my shelter from the storms … …(the list goes on) but most importantly
my stronger intellectual and emotional half.
I know I have to stay strong for the kids and the folks. But
for now, I know I’d be less than half my usual self when Sep comes knocking.
posted by CAI at 6:31 PM
2 Comments:
It is not going to be easy. When we talked about it some time ago, logically we said we can do it. But in reality, things are harder than it looks. It will be a big change for the family and sacrifice especially for you. I have also asked myself if it's the right decision and I'm also unsure.
But at this stage, we will have leave it to God. We will do it with prayers and being positive. It's not easy but I am sure we can work it together.
I will endeavour to make as much time as possible to be back, and I would wan you and the family to join me as much as possible as well. We can turn it into something that will work for us. It is something that we will do to make things work.
So have faith dear, and I wan to say we are all in it together.
I am sure you'll be strong and pull through, Mrs Lim! Thank god for technology these days, distance can be pulled closer together no matter how physically far apart people may be from each other :)
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